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Complacency
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I’ve had a hell of a year, and it’s not even three months in. Yet I’ve had time to reflect on where I’ve come from and who I’ve been. I’m drawn out and torn down, this sweater I’ve worn now for three straight nights starts to smell like the weather that’s clouding my head, but with every step I’m getting further and further ahead. The fog’s slowly lifting, I’m wading and shifting my way through this head space, headstrong in my place. Complacent and faded, I’m tired, sedated, why does all that I love slip away.
But you kept on standing there, to serve as a constant reminder of the things that I have and the people that stayed, of the thoughts in my head and the road that I pave. Yeah you kept on standing there, to serve as a constant reminder of everything I have left, and everything that I’ve ever said.
There’s a difference between being lonely and being alone, and the sadness that’s inherent in both is either assumed or cuts to the bone. Currently I’m rising but I’m falling all the same. I’m not exactly in pain, but I’m not exactly okay. I feel the approach of the spring, but there isn’t one in my step. I’m not standing still, I just haven’t started running yet.
But you kept on standing there, to serve as a constant reminder of the things that I have and the people that stayed, the thoughts in my head and the road that I pave. Yeah you kept on standing there, to serve as a constant reminder of everything I have left, and everything that I’ve ever said I never meant.
I hope it’s for the best. I’m complacent.
The snow covers the ground, weighs all my branches down. Like petals from a rose I fall but I never make a sound. Exhausted and confused, with nothing left to lose. So I'll just run in circles 'til I find comfort in the truth.
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